Confused.

haven't updated this for a while so here goes ;

well, i know she has moved on but for some reason i think about her each day.

Not the whole day but there will be a point in the day where i think about her and miss her.

I was very stupid and selfish, i didnt show her i love her, i had the most amazing girl in the entire

world, and i took it for granted and didn't try nearly as hard as she did...

if i had my time with her again it would be so different, but i guess i'll never get to show her that...

i dont think i will ever give up hope though.

Update

has been a while since i have updated.

everything has been going fairly well.

been reconsidering my career at this point.

also been having alot of Nightmares recently, no guess what they are about.

the car is at a point im happy with, so i dont plan to touch it for a good 4 months.

there is alot more to life than playing with cars, i just wish i had of realised this sooner rather than

later...

Progression

I seem to have ACCEPTED that it's now the past.

i have been focusing on other things, and trying to do what makes me happy.

it's interesting to see which friends are really willing to look out for you, and which ones dont have the time.

i guess this is how to get back up when you fall down...

one day at a time.

this is new.

well, i decided to make a blog just to express myself i guess.
realised lately ive been so far removed from myself that i dont even know who i am or what i believe in...
so time to get back to that.

the name of the blog was chosen due to the movie of the same title, which holds alot of meaning for me. I was once very reckless and selfish and didnt care for anything constructive, that was of course untill she came along...


She showed me so many things in this world that i hadnt of seen beforehand, not because i was blind, just because i didnt take the time to notice.

Well... that was 2 years ago, and alot has changed...
happiness soon turned to arguments and tears,
so it ended, neither of us are sure if it will ever work,
even in the future.

SO, for now i will do my best to get back to normal life, enjoying my passions in life and putting in 100% at work.